Somebody Bring Me Some Water

so many people
annoying me
talking
and not listening
not being heard
not being seen
fighting for my time
my power
my influence

i need to be more patient
hold back
observe
interject at the right time
earn their ears
and eyes

but i can't help wincing
when i think about her telling me,
"you're so articulate"
"you're the cream of the crop"
who are you?
how did this happen?
i am above your strategic praise
i am not
your underling

he just left
i was so cautious
keeping a distance between us
with words
with teacherly corrections
how could he think arizona
is in the midwest?
i wanted him close to me
but also can't stand him
in some ways
he ate half my pasta
i was full anyway
we watched a movie i could not get into
later on
we got into things
that are not easily
gotten out of.

POST-CUBA




LITTLE ITALY




GOD'S WAITING ROOM





APPLEBEE'S (ughhhhhhhhh)

I will not say that I'm not ready
for life to begin again
early mornings
tired eyes
frantic decisions for clothing
no breakfast
beauty parlour on the subway
just don't drop anything
and ignore the young boy watching
as you apply your eyebrows
rush down macdougal
no time for coffee
hello ms. martinez
scratch your name
trudging up the steps
heart racing
that will not happen this year.
please.

was awoken by one coyly smiling dora
showered overlong after 2 days of not
ate nothing before heading out with M & N
bought a black and white dress
bought a purple dress
bought a stripey frock
ate a chocolate covered oreo
drank a medium cherry coke, delish!
bought a purple v neck sweater, cotton
bought a cobalt/royal/current? blue v neck sweater
went home in a gray volvo
ate pizza that has not touched my tastebuds for 13 years
gave a trillion kisses
on foreheads, arms, legs and cheeks
bit toes and pudgy peds
changed a few poopy (and some wee wee) diapers
assisted in hand-washing post #1
read gossie, penguins and chick squared boom squared 1 time
delighted in children
experienced my own growth
realized i must have my own
(expression of love made concrete
gleaming points of light for eyes
rolls of doughy flesh
dirty diapers and
chortles of glee)


the kind of creatures who do this:

you are so infuriating
i want to wring your neck,
stifle your snarling bark, then
wrap you in my arms
heal you from your own misery
help you see outside your self

it has always been this way
you enter a room
all the air leaves
we hold our collective breath

sometimes you breathe fire
scorching all in your path
sometimes it's more like carbon dioxide
stealthy and destructive
slaying all
before the mind comprehends

still life:
dilapidated orchid
buoyant baby boy
bracelets in primary colours
bangles from trees
hidden credit card never to be used again a scam

this is what happens when your love becomes flesh
marble eyes that smile
chortles punctuated by frustrated sniffles
doughy limbs, unsteady beams of light
that reach right through
opaque illusions

most definitely. h.l. reached beyond the ultimate heights of any actor. he allowed (perhaps foolishly) the joker to completely inhabit the being who was once h.l. perhaps that's why he was so utterly terrifying in this role. the joker settled in and *poof* (finger snap) heath was gone... a tragic oscar, but oscarworthy no doubt.

I knew when I took these pictures, that I would miss this place. I would miss the colors and the simplicity and what it symbolized. Summer. Freedom. Unfettered. Summer is not even over yet and I yearn for this place.

parting green sea yields beige then azureblue:


Alsie carried the heaviest items while mom and I tried to look helpful:

whoever came up with this application for the iphone rules my world right now. this may be my favorite iphone app aside from the game jirbobreak and another one called jawbreaker which they've just changed to something stupid that I cannot recall right now.

It is fun to press it and then act like you have no idea where the sound is coming from. my mom thought it was actually me making the sound. though it is not, it is definitely a noise i would and do make. often. I have always made noises. Snorts, screeches, whoos of glee and of course farting sounds.

watch the brilliance in action: